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Janice Dubroff's avatar

I know Im reading a real and genuine writer when i read this. I feel this too, the need to write and the conflicting feelings of wanting to hide what I write, but also the fear that I will never be legitimized by anyone but myself. And so, we carry on

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Evelyn K. Brunswick's avatar

I think I understand what you mean. Finding the right audience is not necessarily the same skill set as writing. I don't really have it.

So I resign myself to thinking that hardly anyone will read what I write - but only in my own lifetime. Like you I am not well-adjusted or compatible with a marketplace dystopia like this one, so I shall live and die poor and unrecognised. On the other paw, because I also don't like to be seen, there is some comfort in that.

I have however given myself an ability to believe that in several hundred years time, lots of people will read what I do and those are the ones I will be helping. Some might call that a delusion, but I have consciously decided to call it faith.

But for now, my advice to myself is simply to write for myself first. And definitely not compromise what I write in view of any expectations of what others might or might not want.

Not sure that helps, though!

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Kerry Jane's avatar

I like that mindset and I think I will take part of that into my own motivations moving forward. You never know what eyes will see our work when we’re gone, although it’s hard to believe that anyone significant will find it in the vast sea of content there will be. “I know that I don’t know”. 🤷🏼‍♀️

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Evelyn K. Brunswick's avatar

That's true about how much content there is out there - I think this is one of the main issues - it's a sort of deliberate oversaturation (of the marketplace/planet) in order to hide the great and educative stuff from people.

I'm thinking I may bury all my stuff in a time capsule. That's the sort of quirky thing that might just work lol.

Anyhow, a girl can definitely dream.

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